if prom ends up shitty and me going to a lame party alone i may break edge so lets hope i ask this girl to it and don’t have to deal with any of that

i feel blank and that’s the worst feeling because i’m not happy and i can’t cry or be sad or anything i’m just gonna listen to dr dre

girls?????????????

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

idk if this other girl has a boyfriend or not but she wants to hang out and goddammit i don’t even know why does this happen

wow since that last post i haven’t talked to that girl go me

also dudes!!! asking people to talk to you never works please stop

i’m so sick of “c’mon man, send me asks!!!!!!!!! i’m lonely”

you wonder why people dip out of your life

maybe its because you make them think you like them, maybe because they pour their hearts out for you and you don’t acknowledge them, maybe because you visibly talk to other guys and take pictures with them, maybe because you don’t reply back the second i try to hang out with you

i want this girl out of my life and i don’t even know why she’s in it and i’m fucking mad and did i really just fucking waste 4 months on you

she doesn’t like me and i know it and i want to change that but i know i can’t and lmao i’m only living here for a few months and i’m going into college with no experience or past relationships or anything like ok

tonight was cool because i saw kitty live and everyone i like was there and for the record im’ typing this without glasses and from far away from the screen and in the dark so i don’t care about typos but tonight was cool and i’m so happy and idk it was just cool like my favorite moment is when i was getting hype and stuff and kitty put the mic in my face and yelled my name and it felt cool and i’m going to sleep now

i hate the people i’m friendly to who i don’t like

i hate the record store

i hate the food

i hate the old friends that don’t like me anymore

i hate the new friends i don’t really like

i hate the schools

i hate the people at other schools

i hate the girls who pretend to be artsy

i hate the kids who pretend they know what they’re talking about

i hate the kids who get stupid tattoos

i hate the self-proclaimed masters of the universe

i hate know-it-alls

i hate perfectionists

i hate the filthy customers at work

i hate the pestering customers at work

i hate my bed

i hate how dirty my room is because i’m never home

i hate dudes who don’t know when to stop

i hate girls who don’t know where to stop

i hate the music scene

i hate posers

i feel better now

that last situation i posted about got better but then bad again and i don’t even fuckin care anymore i want to leave town because there’s almost nothing of value left for me here im’ sorry

just kidding i know who that girl is dating and i like the kid but bruh he was dating another girl like a month ago c’mon

and the worst part about all of this is she kinda seemed interested and i was thinking about texting her today to hang over break but

daaaaaaaaamn

i’m hurt